Living in Denmark

Sometimes I think my family is DARNED effed up. I mean what’s so difficult about just going for a family dinner. That I have to remind and keep reminding my dad about it and my mum has to keep nagging and nagging to remind him about. One thing really irks me is to have to please others, to have to try and understand them and see in their point of view. It’s all about priorities and I really feel that if you don’t want others to do the same thing to you don’t to it to others. Yes I don’t get to choose my family members, but I don’t think I am a saint too, can’t just things goes smoothly for one fucking gathering?? I don’t even care if you go to ah ma’s house every Sunday, but it’s just occasions that happen prolly like once or twice a year is if that freaking hard? And I don’t see why communicating is so effing hard that I am the one that have to try and change my communication to each and everyone of you so that we will all have things that goes smoothly, can’t you all just change your style of communication and FREAKING COMMUNICATE with each other. That’s what a family is right???!! We have been there for each other for like freaking 20 over years for heaven sake!!!! How can always be the only one which is the persuasive one or the own who is able to communicate with the other?? Instead of just not putting in effort, appreciate the little effort that everyone tries to put I’m instead of putting them down. HONESTLY, Sometimes I really feel like blasting to say things like can you all freaking act like freaking adults. That’s gonna be totally disrespecting and I guess head on confrontation is not gg to work for all the stubborn people that runs in my family blood I guess.

Totally just needed a medium to vent my angst. It’s not as if I hadn’t had enuff at work and I have to come home to these and have people breathing down my neck. Sometimes I just wanna disappear from this world and have just silence, silence all by myself. Not having to have to think about what my actions would impact on the other party or like what do I have to say or put things nicely so that I wouldn’t have the hurt the other’s party feelings.

GUESS WHAT??? sometimes I just really don’t care you know. I always have had enough of pleasing others and always have to go with what they would like or prefer. Has anyone asked what are my preferences really are?

Screw this. I hate having to report to people. Rather I prefer to do things as and when I like and when I wanna instead of people dictating me to. ARGHHHHH!