Living in Denmark

whiny post ahead.HAHAS

anyways.

reading people’s blog and hearing about them celebrating their 2nd or 3rd year anniversary with their bf/gf always makes me question myself, what have i not done enough to be able to hold the happiness of my relationship like them? what have i done wrong to deserve nothing but heartache?

maybe sometimes its not all about whether i have done enough for him or not, it’s more about what he wants me to do for him or what i could do to make him happy.sometimes its just my wishful thinking. i sincerely tot that gg the extra effort to do things to surprise him would make his day, but NAH  it’s not true. maybe lack of communication is what that has broken between us. i could not be sure what was he thinking, and i believe he does not like sharing much of his things with me as possible. as a result tension build up together with the accumulated stress from his work and family matters, our relationship strained. i dunno how to salvage it cuz work and family became his excuse. i tried convincing myself tat things will be fine, but it never happened.

well wat i do not wish would happened already happened. there’s nothing i can change. things have been really too much for me to really release my emotions regarding this matter.i guess i will just let time slowly heal that emptiness and space that you once took in my heart. i’m happy that i have not been crying at all , though at times i get all emo and feel like crying, but somehow or rather, i learn to swallow tears back and i guess i’m FINE again. being strong is what i need to do now.

din really update bout genting. but it was a rather fun trip with the exception that i lost my camera, specs, mp3 and some cash. damn suay but i guess maybe it’s a blessing in disguise, at least i never lose my passport. time to get mew camera and mp3 ;))) work next few days is gg to be hell again. but i’m starting to enjoy it :))