Living in Denmark

saturday was emo day for me. the rain was not making me feel better like how it does previously. having to go back to work on a saturday is bad, well it’s not smth that i like :(( but i guess i do not have a choice. DRAGGED myself to work.

every step i took seem like a mile. emotions flood my brain making me feel like crying every single moment. i dunno why am i feeling things way, maybe its like wat ppl always say, EMO days. thinking of the past and everything, i really feel like crying, but i’m afraid of doing so. and i dun want to do so.

i just have mixed or weird emotions. i really felt like or wanted to cry cuz i was feeling the pain and hurt which never really leave me even though i though i could let go, i really wish there could be someone to hold me tight and let me know that everything will be okay and it will over soon, just like there will always be rainbow after every storm.

but at times i wish that i can just be invisible, so that no one can notice my emotions and that i can stop pretending that i am OKAY when i am not. EMO days are not any better when i have to go work in town on a saturday when i see everyone happily enjoying myself when i’m stuck in my own EMONESSS.

well i dunno what i am really tokking about but i guess i will be fine SOON .

I must be STRONG and i will be. From now on, i will NEVER SHED a tear in front of anyone no matter how sad, helpless, lost or painful i am. i will not be weak in front of anyone.

for friends who are worried about me, JUST give me a BIG FAT hug during my EMO days , and i will be happily smiling again :)))